Ahhh, Josh-another mind bendingly deep read. I love your humanity and courage to share your search for yourself which I think I have experienced in one way and another.
There you are, Josh! “Love” IS the answer. Your courage is astounding and as always, thank you for sharing your beautiful struggle. Looking forward to playing music soon. Sara from RTSO.
From your blog and from time spent with you while you performed in Baltimore years ago where my wife and I were living at the the time, I know what a fine human being you are. I genuinely sympathize with your bouts of depression. Your regrets about the past and your relationships with your parents can never be changed now that they are gone. So, they must be accepted and learned from (which you apparently have). If there is an afterlife where the souls of those who preceded us dwell, you can believe that your parents are at peace and love and wish you well.
As for the rest of us, although I can speak only for myself, you are a loving and compassionate being who makes the world better for your presence. I hope that you can overcome any bouts of depression remembering this.
I thank you for your guts and generosity in writing while on the "faraway voyage" . . . and also for this all-out call for love! Such an unwavering look at how it's hard to be a person, and how we can absolutely imagine love into being.
I'm blown away by the level of introspection and self-awareness demonstrated in this piece. It is not surprising that you chose "performer" as your profession. Thank you for sharing this.
"I am, perhaps, an unreliable narrator of my own life."
- I think this is true of all of us.
Glad to read that you are emerging from this bout of depression.
Ahhh, Josh-another mind bendingly deep read. I love your humanity and courage to share your search for yourself which I think I have experienced in one way and another.
There you are, Josh! “Love” IS the answer. Your courage is astounding and as always, thank you for sharing your beautiful struggle. Looking forward to playing music soon. Sara from RTSO.
I love both of the pictures of you, one with each of your parents at different ages. You are beautiful.
Hey Josh,
From your blog and from time spent with you while you performed in Baltimore years ago where my wife and I were living at the the time, I know what a fine human being you are. I genuinely sympathize with your bouts of depression. Your regrets about the past and your relationships with your parents can never be changed now that they are gone. So, they must be accepted and learned from (which you apparently have). If there is an afterlife where the souls of those who preceded us dwell, you can believe that your parents are at peace and love and wish you well.
As for the rest of us, although I can speak only for myself, you are a loving and compassionate being who makes the world better for your presence. I hope that you can overcome any bouts of depression remembering this.
Your heart is genuinely kind, whatever side you show to yourself or others starts there. It is for this reason that you are loved.
You write so sweetly, yet with with knife edge observational precision.
Quite a few tears while reading these last few months.
Beautiful, Josh. Thank you for sharing so deeply.
Depression as a crucible of the Self. Really good work, Josh. 🫶
I am relived to hear you are coming back to yourself.
I thank you for your guts and generosity in writing while on the "faraway voyage" . . . and also for this all-out call for love! Such an unwavering look at how it's hard to be a person, and how we can absolutely imagine love into being.
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I'm blown away by the level of introspection and self-awareness demonstrated in this piece. It is not surprising that you chose "performer" as your profession. Thank you for sharing this.